it feels like it won't get better. it's just getting worse.
i should be 18 months clean but i can barely go a few days.
i just want to run away from everything. when i think about the future it makes me feel sick. i can't imagine myself living long enough to have a future. it is too overwhelming to be alive.
i have run out of words to write. i don't know where else to turn.
i'll just do what i do best.
be sad and push everyone away.
it's all i have left.
